I hate saying goodbyes

And today marks the third passing of this month.

Father, I'm not strong. Please be my strength.

I'm gonna miss you alot dam dam.

Even though surrounded by many,
it can't be helped

The feeling of loneliness

Have I turned cynical over the years? Why is it when there's more knowledge to one thing, one expects more and wants it exactly how it perceives.

Am questioning the words used during services and how pastors bring people forward. Why does it not sit peacefully in me? Really, is there no better way and better words put...

So many questions in my head.

Twas just a dream

Refining Silver

Was reading on Psalm 12 when I came across the verse which says:

" The words of the Lord is flawless, like silver refined in a furnace of clay,  purified seven times." Psalm 12:6 (NIV)

I've heard about how refined gold or silver is the purest of pure, and that is how pure God is. Came across an excerpt today, which brought my understanding to a whole new level.

http://www.therefinersfire.org/refiners_fire.htm

It's really beautiful to know how much God loves us and wants to make us into his image. 

From the website, the author said that many of us have been through "fire". Its through this fire - our trials and tribulations - that our rough edges were smoothened and sharped edges sluffed off, until we closely resemble what we are suppose to be. God allows us to go through hard times so that we may grow and become smooth and shiny. So that, not only does He see us becoming a reflection of Him but others can also see Him in us. 

A really beautiful explanation. Learning something new everyday. 

I choose to be Holy, set apart for You Lord, ready to do your will. 

Hungry after 2am

It's past 2 am, and I've snacked on my last 2 peanut cookies from Christmas, a box of raisins and an orange... I'm still not really satisfied, and now i have to re-brush my teeth *sulks*

Moral of the story: Don't eat cup noodles and cassava as dinner.

Blogging cos I'm not really sleepy and my brain is fully active. Sigh, not a good sign for the pimples.

It's slightly over 2 weeks into the new year, and much things have happened - a cancer news and a memorial. It got me thinking of life and the things I would do should they happen to me. Things are so much scarier when it happens to someone close to you.

On a lighter note, I wanna watch the My Fair Lady musical.

Let go and let God

I came to realise that the amount of fears are piling.

I have this fear, the fear of people leaving, and I'm left all alone. The fear of having to start all over again, getting out of my comfort zone.

This 2014, i need to learn to let go and let God. Placing all fears in Him.

I am but a human, i am weak.

On this journey to rediscovering God.