Groups and AAAAAHHHhhhh.....

The first week of school is when the terror begins. Not the modules and not the timings, but more of the groupings and the people.

So this week, I made an enemy and I hurt somebody. I feel guilt towards the person I hurt. To my new found enemy, I really don't feel anything towards you. But sometimes i just feel like - What?!, when i see you.

I never knew that forming groups could ever be so full of drama and politics. This is the first time I've ever felt this way. In a dilemma between what's beneficial towards myself or towards a relationship. I know the answer already, but when facing the problem, everything just comes back to - ME. As a result, feelings are hurt, enemies are drawn.

I would like to think of it as a learning experience. And it also got me reminded of how critical the world can be. Talking to the rest today had me reminded myself of how God really has a purpose for everything that we faced.

Today was NPDOP. I really gave a lot of thought on what happened the past 4 days - My attitudes and behaviours. Some of the things I've done weren't the best solution and not very Godly. But I'm reminded again that i shouldn't take things into my own hands but place everything into God's. There's so little I can do, but so much He can do.

I'd swung my phone onto the road right in front of the bus on my way home. I immediately picked everything up, after I've picked everything up, tapped my card and sat down, I realised that my phone battery was missing. I panicked and thought it was impossible to find it 'cos the bus could have run over my battery, but i knew i had picked everything up already so how could it have gone missing? I checked my seating area, but no, it was no where in sight. Finally i just gave up and told God that if it appears, it will.

Something told me to alight from the front 'cos my batt might have flung out of my hands when i tapped my card. Lo and behold, it really was there when i was about to alight.

Moral of the story: God shows miracles even with the slightest things.

This week, my aim: To not be confounded by the worldly things, and to constantly remind mself of the Fruits of the Spirit.

雨过天晴

Thanks for clarifying things with me :)

I thought today's sermon was quite interesting and impactful. There were many things that could be learn from the story of Jesus feeding the 5,000 with 5 loaves and 2 fishes. The most important thing i picked out was to have faith of a child - Simple Faith.

I guess that's what I'm really lacking of right now. Shall pray bout it.

It so happens when I feel down, everything I see or hear follows my mood. The songs playing, although i can't catch the words, just the tune can't further sadden me.

I don't know why its affecting me so much. I should just ask, and then clear my doubts.

Is it me?

Are you directing this at me? If so, I'll steer clear of you then

The Duck Song

Duck Song

Duck Song 2

Duck Song 3

Found this video during the last day of camp! Very entertaining... Haha :D

Have faith, I must

I have comments on my post :D Haha.

Long walks trigger thoughts. Or at least, that's what I believe. I had something in mind to post about for the week when I was in the car, but it disappeared when I tried recalling. Oh wells, I'll just post whatever that comes into mind.

Okay, i shall admit it. Nothing is popping in the head!

Oh, now here's something. This week, I learn that it is not as simple as it says to have faith. When i read the bible, thoughts like, did that really happen? Oh really? just pops into mind. That's when i know that doubts do arise every now and then, but what's most important is to have faith.

Somehow i feel that, every time I'm a little closer to God, i get pulled back a little too. It feels like a battle between the good and the evil. (This reminds me of Star Wars. Haha.)

My time table's out too, and I'm not at all happy about it :( But, i guess everything will be sorted out, in His time.

Hmm, shall get to work on the videos. O Inspiration, be upon me.

Just another Week

There wasn't much to do online, but I try to make myself do stuff online. Why? I do not know the reason either. So anyway, I realised that there are people who actually read my blog.

I finally watched the Paul B. dvd that GY lent me. It was about creating flow during worship leading. It was similar to what Yurong said to me during our pre-worship. I guess it really was helpful, 'cos I did learn quite a number of things.

I thought today's cell was quite encouraging. For once, everyone in cell seemed 'alive'. I think one of the most important thing required during a session is laughter. Without laughter, the session would just seem so - dead. But then again, too much laughing can cause annoyance and irritant. I think i always worry when there's no one laughing after too long a while.

Laughter does somehow cease the tension during lesson. Appropriate laughter that is.

I guess the same goes when I give testimony. Somehow, I feel much more at ease when i see people smiling at me or laughing to what i say.

Okay, this post shall not get any longer, and i shall end it with a picture :)