Desperate...

Just what's wrong with going to poly? I can't seem to understand with his thinking. I was all in smiles in the morning when i knew i've got posted to. Why can't i go to a school of my wish. Anger, Upsetness boiling in me. It was a JOvial moment an estatic moment when i knew i got into the course of my dream. But everything stopped short when he called. His disappointment in his tone made me upset, not with him but myself. Why can't he ever be happy with what i got and just leavethings be. I know he wants the best for me, but not everything will turn out the way he wants it to be. Isn't my happiness all that matters? I told him many a times since i sent my decision for my postings. I'll leave it to got to where HE wants me to go. I told him many times that i was alright with both poly and jc, he was okay with it. But now? Why can't he just have faith and confidence in me that i can excel in poly and the course. That through poly i'll be able to made it into university. Can he even give me a word of encouragement? Or at least a congratulation because i've got into a course of my dream. People would ask, are you happy with what you've got? but there's not even a single word of happiness in his tone for me. He's just disappointed! Can somebody just tell me what to do? God... Help me out of this. I really don't wish to appeal.

Sian...

I'm seriously bored! Its like 1.09 a.m. now and i'm still online. My arm is aching and i worked for 6 hours yesterday, and did bout 10 mind maps. Broke my record. Outside on the road, got some Hell- riders. Their motor bikes create the noise which disturb the silence of the night. Okay i'm damn random la. too bored le. Posting of results is like in 7 hours time... I'm both excited and indifferent. Okay, this is like so damn random- i'm like doing the quizzes frm the website i kapoed from yurong's web... Some were quite contradicting... Haha... OH Well. Tomrrow might be the last day of my free and easy day...

Thats all. EH, GOOD NIGHT! ")

Oh, before its really too late. : HAPPY BDAE XIANDA!!!!

Day 3 of CNY

Hellos! Went to Jinle's place to bai nian today. Ah, my source of entertainment of Ryan and his tas-tet-ball... So cute la he. Didn't join David Kuang and JL to bugis after tht cos my godparents came to our house to bai nian and i had to be around. After that, Colonel Tan and his wife together with my ah mm ,uncle and 2 other church members came to bai nian. Me and Jeremy went down to play squash, my elder bro joined us later. Wasn't tired at all but my right arm was aching... Haha... Sat there and watch the two boys play. Hmm, my elder bro can sure storm!

Nothing much today lor and tomorrow going for work at 12 noon. I guess thats it, eh... GOOD NIGHT ")!

QUIZ...

ok... i found this in Yurong's blog and i find it quite true. Here's the webbie http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx.

And here's my review... Haha...

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Yups, thats it...

HAAPPY CHINESE NIU YEARR !!!

Hello, it's been 5 days since i last blog... Okay today is the Chinese New year Festive... Ahhh, collecting red packet and all and the many goodies.... YUM... I know what David and his gang will say if they see that sentence. Haha... Okay so I'm gonna giva an update for all 5 days, but not to worry, i'll not keep it long for the benefit of some ppl ")...

FRIDAY
Woke up early in the morning and went down to school to past the music notes to Ian. Then went to hub to settle some stuffs cos the guys whom i were supposed to meet up with were late. Minghui overslept, Kenneth just left his place and the David joined us at the very last min. We were supposed to meet at 11a.m. but they only arrived, one after another at bout 11.20- 11.30. Haiz, sat the station and waited for them for at least 20 mins, GUys can sure keep a girl waiting, so ungentlement. So to cut story short, we met up with Rebe at Dhoby Ghaut and Victor and his gang of friends, bout 11 juniors and 1 of the same age, to catch a movie. Vic and his friends watch Alls well ends well while the rest of us watched Changeling, all thanks to a very kind soul. GOd's been good. Haha... ]The show ended at bout 3.30 and then, me Vic Rebe Kenneth and Ming caught the 3.40 show Inkheart. BOthe were nice movies. Ate dinner at BK. Erm, me Ming and Vic had worship prac at 6.30 and were kinda late, but we still managed to reached there not too late. YUps. Thats all. Cell group was eh tiring? Haha... But kinda nice and fun to hear the opinions of the younger ones on the questions. I'm getting loder each day =(.

SATURDAY

Had worchip prac- chinese corp de, in the morning and was supposed to meet guan you for lunch at 1.30. Eh was also supposed to pass Yanling her books too. Prac ended at 11 plus and the supposed baking-trail was pushed to a later time. So i went to Yan place and stayed for bout an hour before leaving for Bishan again. Ate lunch with Guan you and talked bout our cell and mentoring stuff then bought butter and bubble tea before heading back to corp for cookie baking... Baking cookies were fun!!! Mark use too much strength on GY's whisk and when Dez used it later, the handle broke. Haha... OKay the first batch were kinda burnt while the second one were just nice. Me and Tim use the leftovers and make it into a big cookie. Jerrold's parents dropped me and Guanyou off at J8 after we finished.

SUNDAY

Didn't attend English corp today, had to go back to prepare for renuion lunch cum dinner. Eh, the cater was good. The weather was chilly. Had bbq for the night.

MONDAY

Went to my second uncle place to bai nian and then to my first uncle place. Ok at the second place, we were absoluetly bored. Me and my cous started wandering around then went to Jonathan's room to use his laptop and watch tv, wet back downstairs and started wandering ard o. Terence brought janice back. We were so bored tht bu zhi bu jue. We cousins sat on the steps, Me Joe yong, My bro Justin, Jing shen, Jonathan, Terence, Jethro and Janice started playin lame games which require no sense and knowledge... But we were having fun. Went home at bout 10 plus close to 11

TODAY

Left for my godparent's place in the morning ten to my gu gus' place. My da gu's place was super WINDY. The outside. Haha... Me and my cous started hanging outside and taking pictures of ourselves. We went back in when some ppl came and destory the mood and when my cousin and family arrived. Started playing more lame games with them. Went back outside with Joeyong and realised that ppl were FLYING KITES! It's ben ages since i've fly a kite and a nostalgic feeling came upon me. The kites were flying so high. I've never seen a kite tht fly so high before. The both us were like WOW... Ok next me and JY left for my er gu's place to find Yuping. Started watching yu le bai fen bai. Went many came, we hung out in Ping jie's room and started looking through the photo albums when JY mom in and say tht it was time to go... SAD... We were just beginning to have fun... So ya that marks the end of the 2 days celebration. WEnt to macs for dinner later.

I realised tht all of us, cousins relatives and so on the HEE family, are actually very close compared to other ppl. I guess its kinda good so when we meet up, we won't feel awkward or out of place. Yups. Tomorrow maybe going to JInle's place to bai nian.

OKay, i's doing this for the fun of it. Eh SAMMIE, why tag me?

Here's the quiz:

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be ?

- Eh, forgive and forget? Depends on how the situation is.

#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be ?

-Eh, to turn Daph into a christian

3. What will your dream wedding be like ?

- Mine really very dream like leh, to be in a church on a hilltop.

#5. What's your ideal lover like ?

- humourous and nice and loving and understanding and MUST be christian, taller than me oso

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone ?

- No idea, haven't really experienced either and love is a very powerful word !

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love ?

- Leave everything to God lor.

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do ?

- Nothing. Like hello, i like him but he doesn't know it, so what's there to do?

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days ?

- Nope. Not yet

#10.What do you want most in life ?

- Currently nothing yet

#11. Is being tagged fun ?

- Eh, not really leh

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time ?

- Someone who has found true love and already travelled to my dream country- Switzerland")

#13. Who is the current most important person to you ?

- God

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is ?

- A very pleasant girl who can be mean and horrible at times. Bleah.

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor ?

- Married but poor. Well, at least i'm happy

#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be ?

- Puppy!!!

#17. What are one of those things which you would prefer not to do ?

- Anything against God's will

#18. What kind of person do u think u are ?

- A person with an attitude, both good and bad... Hahas

#19. What do you define as a bad day ?

- When things don't go my way or everything is against me

#20. If you have to choose between love (as in boy-girl relationships) and friendship, what would it be ?

- Friendships. I DON'T HAVE BF. So friends are the most important thing so far

My next targets are:

DAVID LAU!!!!

KUANG JIE!!!

JIN LE !!!!

okay, i guess that's all... GOOd NIGHt!

BORED~

I'm so bored. I'm sitting in front of the computer, blogging, waiting for my cousin to come. Just left St Nicks. I had a pizza party today. Well, there were 10 of us, me ,Cleon, Remy, Oliver, Marcus, Cheng fen, Loretta, Jolyn, Crystal and Gail. Ate 4 slices of pizza cos i did not had breakfast or lunch before that. Was pretty hungry. OH, I'm at church by the way, using the computer. ANd i'm BORED.... Bored.... Bored.... Okay thats all... Ahahaz...

Bored

I have nothing must to day, just two points to summarise wat i did the entire day.

- spring clean
- being a couch potato

Yups thats all. The good thing was i was able to wake up early at 9.40 a.m today. Haven wake up that early without being woken up by others for a while. Hmm... I have seriously nothing to write about today and probably wont post anything for the next two days. I have a pizza party tomorrow @ 2 and later at 4.30 i'll be going over to church to teach my cousin maths and later on band practice. Then on friday, i'll be going out for movies with people, a mixture of church frens and sch frens. Interesting...

Okay, thats really all leh. An early Good Night to you all ")...

Feeling Better :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIN LE!!!!!(you're a year older, old man)
Today's weather was FREAKY... It was uber cold and windy in the morning and hot in the afternoon and now, it's cold and winday again... Darn weather, making everyone fall sick. Was woken up at &.30 this morning cos i promised my mom to go have a morning walk, but she let me slept an hour more "). We walked to macs for breakfast and walked home later. It was a glorious morning although it was rather sunny, it was windy and cold. Slacked at home watching "Gong" till 12.00 noon then went to bathe before setting out to celebrate Jin Le's birthday. Met Kuang David Rebe at Serangoon station then left for Buangkok the place where the bdae boy stays. Was joined by Xianda, Jia Le and Yong Jing and later came Chidam and a very pale looking Isaac. Haha... So three of us were sick, Me Isaac and the bdae boy. Back at Jinle's place, we hung out in his room and very cute cousin, Ryan came to join us "). He follows everything we says so we had to watch our mouths when he was around, he's only 3 yrs old la. We played UNO on Jin Le's bed and later played MURDERER. When we were totally bored with the game, Rebe suggested we play heart attack, old sch version. We were so bored tht the guys started fooling ard with each other and on the bed. We were laughing so hard la, even the pale looking Isaac managed a huge grin. Haha") Went down to the bball court to play basketball. Oh btw, the cute little boy said basketball as tas-tet-ball (Chi heard it as satayball). So cute rite?
Me and Rebe left first. Rebe was rather infurated and mad at her two" sons" especially the first one. See, tht's wat happens after facing not one but TWO very insensitive guys, since they are whom she considered as her good and close friends. Well, she wasn';t that mad at her goson, its the other one... Dots... Guys should learn how to detect a girl's feeling. Futhermore, they were scaring her with the snake knowing well that she has phobia of them. Well, once was okay, but scaring her with the snake a little too many time was rather mean. Told them off and took away the snake till we went back. Nothing much after that le... Was feeling Sleeeeeeepy on the way home.

Yups, i guess thats all for today. Tomorrow, i'll be cleaning the house with my mom tmr... Think gonna suffer from block nose after tht. And, my throat is still itchy although the nose is better. Yups... Good Night ") !

Still SIck?

Today's UPDATE - WORK! Not gonna type much today. Just read an article, i think, from Yurong's blog about the weather and am seriously shocked. Singapore's "snowing"! and evertone including me is falling sick and the thing is CNY is just around the corner- next week ! Argh and i just heaty stuff like potato chips and some CNY goodies my tuition teacher offered me. Couldn't resist the temptation. Okay for 1 i'm gonna sleep early tonight so as to recover my voice and cos tmr got piano. Ok that's all... Erm good night? Hahas...

stuffed nose

HOrrible nose i have... Its been STUFFED and BLOCKED for 1 WHOLE week... Gonna keep today's post short cos i want to do some other things. OKay went to church today like every other Sundays but this time round i tried to keep myself awake during sermon, my nose wasn't of any help at all but yup, still managed to pull through the sermon not nodding off away. Me and Ming did the announcement for the cookies, erm, for 'privacy' sake, i shall not say wat we did, Haha. But i think the congregation had enjoyed our little role play. I always feel that during announcements, the best thing is to hear the people's laughter, of course not at you but with you. It makes me feel relax after i hear their laughter. Am i making any sense? Oh well. Right, so i stayed back after service for a last min meeting. Well before that, the guys - MIng, Meng, Cedric, Victor, Cheryl and Amelia were jamming around(if it is the right term). Standing by their side, i had the urge of playing the keyboard, the keyboard was available. But in anycase, i still played the keyboard which was actually a whole lot of fun.We played Indesribable, Jesus Lover of My Soul, One Way, Tell the World and i forgot the last one le. Then it struck me : I NEED TO PRACTISE MY SCALES!!!!!! I've finally found the ans to the problems i've been thinking about- how come they can play so beautifully on the keyboard even with just the chords. Thats because they knew their scale. OK so my new aim, is to practice and get my scales at the tip of my finger :) which hopefully i'll do. Left corp around 4.40 p.m. with Ming Hui. Missed the 136 bus so we decided to walk down the road to where i can take my bus from. I was wearing my sweat shirt firstly it was cold in just now and secondly i was too lazy to hold my sweat shirt. But because of the then HOT weather, i took of my sweat shirt in the middle of the path. MIng was making fun of me la! then came 136 and up on board we went.Reached Parkway ard close to 6. Eh, my family and I had dinner at ROland. And i was super bloated after that. But the food has been almost digested as i am typing this post...
OK, i think thats the end of the post. Gonna do something else le :) GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE !!!

4-in-1

Guess what i hate the most? Waiting for people to reply my msg, i guess of us do. Well, waiting for some certain people to reply, is like waiting for christmas to come la! And yes, i'm complaining even though i know i'm not suppose to cos sometimes i do the exAct same thing. Haha... I guess complaining is a part of human nature even though we know that we are ourselves do the same things we complain about.Okay, so enough about complaining, i'll move on to the hightlights of MY day, haha, sorry if i bore you readers(if there's any la).

And YES, the previous post was not my last post and it was because i was busy the past few days and thats why i didn't post anything. Haha.. Okay so i'll start of with my day and go on downwards till thursday, if you noe wat i mean.



SATURDAY...



Today, went to church in the morning for the normal worship practice. My throat was stuck or rather not open. I had block nose. POor me! Haha... So i'll be seeing solo for tmr's first song - THERE IS NONE LIKE YOU ( chinese). Okay, i was wearing my FOX sweat shirt since morning cos it was rather chilly and my dad concluded that i was ill cos ard 11 plus there was the sun and i had my sweatshirt still on. The thing was, it was still rather windy and i was lazy to remove my sweatshirt -.-... Had lunch with my parnts at the coffe shop in amk, forgotten the ave. Can you believe it? A fish and veg cost $4! So expensive la. That was my lunch. Took panadol for block nose and went home to rest before going out. I slept only for less than an hour cos my dad came to the living room and switch on the tv, which woke me up. Ard 4 we went to OG to shop shop shop... Erm, if you think all girls like to shop, you are definitely wrong cos the thing is i don't really like shopping at all. M parents shopped for my youngest bro, Jabez's clothes first. At first Jeremy was with me, then he pang seh me to look for his fren. So poor lonely and BORED me had to be alone. Was smsing David who happened to be of the same case but different scenario as me. Went to the ladies department to walk walk, then to the men's department to look for Jeremy's clothes - only a shorts, when finally its time for dinner. After dinner, we went to bugis junction's bhg to kia kia and shop for Jeremy's clothes. He didn't bought any shirt but bought a jeans. I got one too :) levis' ... Haha. It was pretty late le, so we headed to the market for a drink while my mum shopped for CNY goodies'. We went over to find her and had a "free flow" of goodies too... Their goodies were left unwatched and people could just take and try anything. OK so that marks the end of today's journey. Did i mention i had had anadditional of two kisses from i supposed the same mossie? at least they didn't swell like the one i got frm my piano teacher's mother's place.



FRIDAY

Had piano lesson in the morning at Serangoon Garden Way, my piano teacher's mom's place.HAd two kisses from mossie! One of them swelled. I walked from there to amk hub ") - depostied money and bought my elder bro a bag for his birthday. Then went on to Yan Ling's place to teach her maths, Daph Daph was there too. Taught Yan trigo and Daph helped out in the elevation and depression of angle part. We only did like Two questions la. But its understandable. Left her place at 5 .30 for Novena to meet up with 409 Geog class for steamboat. The people who were there were Me, Rebe, Kuang ,David, Isaac, Jin Le, Jia ling, Pei ying, Jia Yun, Wenlynn, Mic, Qian, Miss Chua, Mr Chang and the extra Mr Soon. Our table- PY, JL Rebe KJ and me, had mala and chicken. The mala soup made me shit alot and i lao sai. Haha. After that i went back to church for cell and had cell group in a nice and cosy soccer room, i think its called that. Me, Guan you, Celine, Sammie and Jeremy. Went out to get our group's flag from the camp to show GY. Was later informed by Ming that both of us were to do Sunday's announcement for the selling of cookie. The announcement is .... Ok so thts it for friday



THURSDAY

Went to work in the morning and got my pay for that day and the day before. I was feeling Terribly sick that day la. I was freaking cold the entire day. Went to work at 12 plus, not mush appetite to eat but ate anyway. Left there ard 4 plus cos i couldn't stand it any more. Went to church for band prac after day.The day was COLD COLD COLD!!! But i guess band prac did help alot, cos i felt better after blowing the trombone... Ok. i guess thats all.



IN conclusion, haha... I couldn't get up this whole week and i wasn't feeling all to well...



Sry for the long entry but its a comilation of 3 days leh:) OKys, its getting late leh. GOOd NIght...

still updating...

Viola!



New skin and a new music playlist... Haha. However, it was not done by me. Okay must give credits to Jerrold for helping me change skin and adding the playlist down for me. He did it real quick la, unlike me- stared at the screen for don't know how long and then giving up. Haha. Okay if you realised, i'm typing with a CAPITAL letter after every full stop like the proper english structure. My english teacher would be so proud of me :) just kidding. So i guess maybe blogging might be a little addictive cos i'm blogging again. Hmm, maybe its cos i stopped for a long while and that results in 2 years of dead blog. So i'll try i promise to try blogging every now and then and to keep my blog alive. (blogging can be a little fun)



Today's news flash.



I finally went back to work! Now i can earn back the money i had spent and put it back into my almost dried out bank. OK for all those who have no idea what i'm working as, i'm working as a mind map designer. In simple words, i decorate and design an already layed out mind map done by my tuition teacher. The pay is $6/hr and i hit my new record of working for 5 h 50 mins today :). Quite please with myself having to decorate 7 mind maps. My skin by the joint of my thumb was hurting badly after that. Hmm, don't understand? Oh never mind. Wasn't feeling all that well today plus i was in a super cold tuition center. I was freezing la. The weather outside was cool, very cool and that add on to the coldness i have already had. Even now, i'm wearing a jacket ( oh, i'm sitting at the balcony, haha).



Right. So i taught my bro chapter 2 of his maths - real numbers. OK, i have to admit this, he is a quick learner so i didn't have much trouble teaching him. THANK GOD I HAVE SUCH A BROTHER. Oh and the thing was, he came to me to ask me to teach him. Haha, thats a first time.



Ok, i have nothing much to typed about leh. Hopefully this won't be my last entry...



TILL THEN!!!

eh... i updated?

Rite. due to someone's constant nagging for me to 'revive', to 'update' my blog (i shall not mention who). i'm updating now k? its a great improvement for me le. so any way i said i wanted to change my blog skin, now, i decided not to. cos it's to troublesome, and realise after 2 yrs of not posting and touching templates for blog skin, i completely forgot how to read the template. so thts another reason why i don want change my skin anymore... hmm, unless some kind soul from somewhere out there wants to help me la.

results were out yesterday! and yes i'm very SATISFIED with what i've got. i had 5 A2s and 3B3s. and the thing is i PASSED MY MUSIC !!!!!! haha... ok, i must really thank GOD. for all those who do not know, my L1R5 is 13 and my L1R4 is 11... yups. David, again, gave everyone the suprise of their life by getting 10 points! late in the midnight, i spent more than an hour chatting with Dezmand about CJC and asking him bout jc... erm THANKS DEZ.

ok there are no photos for today, well although i took some with rebe's camera. so we, david, kuang, rebe, daph daph, rebe's cousin james and me went to nanyang jc for the open house today. i had no piano lessons today so i called daph down to serangoon. i waited at least 1 HOUR and 30 MINS for her la. on our way to nyjc, the two thing disappeared la leaving me, rebe, daph and rebe's cousin. so fed up with them la. rebe started calling them the two things in chinese. HAHA. ok so the four of us met joel on the way up. after calling them umpteems of time, they finally appeared. and with them were chidam and his bro. we thought tht his brother was his father la, no offense. so we had no idea where to head to and started wondering about. NYJC HAS ALOT OF GOOD ARTIST. SERIOULY! was very impressed with their art piece. low and behold we saw Angelina, our senior. she changed alot, i thik she's happier lor. haha. anyways she got us a tour guide, Steven who is also a student council. hmm, he's good la cause he could answer all our questions. yup. and the one doing most of the questioning was rebe's cousin and chidam's bro.

for awhile, i lost my train of thought. my dad was talking to me .

we went to the library called ' THE DRUM'. nice name eh. the library is big, well, at least bigger than deyi's. we went to art gallery next, then the science labs. IT WAS A WINDY DAY~!!! at around 2.20 p.m. Steven, say it was time to listen to the subject talk. eh, me david kuang rebe and her cous went for the arts while the rest went for the science talk. the arts talk was ok la. the geography one was boring. not tht geog was boring but the lecturer was a hypnotic person. it lasted till 3. 20. it was Raining outside, super cooling la. nothing much after tht. met up with the rest of the guys, steven disappeared, and joel disappeared. found him in the canteen with andrea rachel and james. slacked in the canteen till 4.30 and then home sweet home. haha...

oh Bon Voyage Humphrey! although you won't see this, but yups, take good care of yourself.

ok, i know this post is rather long but haha, who knows when the next post will be up lor...

TILL THEN...

SAWEEE!!!!

hey, i know my blog is super dead at least for 2 years, but erm... i promise to try to post something asap... hmm thinking of changing my blog skin and updating my link... haha some of them are long gone. Oh well. Till then lor...