Never too late

#7 Thank you God for that apology I've waited to hear for almost 8 years.

That one apology could really lift all the past hurts away.

#8 Thank you God for turning something I dreaded into one with a surprising ending.

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Ah ma's been diagnosed with last stage of dementia. I can't help but to feel a sense of guilt, like I had a part to her state of initial dementia. A series of what-if's keep flashing in my head: "What if I had spoken to her more when she was still in a clear state of mind? What if I had spend more time with her in her room?" What if, what if, a lot of what ifs... 

But I remember, the what if's are not thoughts from God, and that they are from the devil. Sure, I hadn't done those things, but Ah ma's not mine. She's God's and I just pray that even in her senile state she'll remember that there's this BIG God that loves her. I can only pray...

The other day it crossed my mind that I had always complained bout her, and seldom praises for her comes out. Well, Ah ma may be the empress dowager at home, but she ultimately has a kind heart and her curry's the best ever. I kinda missed her teasing me, asking me when I was going to get married, and her laugh and her smile. 

God, do with her whatever you want 'cos I know she's in great hands. Till the day she returns home with you, help me to be a better grand daughter. 

Not the best photo, but nevertheless :')