I decided to blog again... I went to read Hui Min's blog, there i'd learn wat i've been saying in the previous post. A praise could really lift one's spirit. Then i went to Andrea's blog, and there i saw this beautiful post.


The Pencil Maker took the pencil aside, just before putting him into the box. There are 5 things you need to know, he told the pencil, before I send you out into the world. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best pencil you can be.

ONE: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in Someone's hand.

TWO: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, but you'll need it to become a better pencil.

THREE: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make.

FOUR: The most important part of you will always be what's inside.

AND FIVE: On every surface you are used on, you must leave your mark. No matter what the condition, you must continue to write.

The pencil understood and promised to remember, and went into the box with purpose in its heart.

Now replacing the place of the pencil with you; always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best person you can be.

ONE: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in God's hand. And allow other human beings to access you for the many gifts you possess.

TWO: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, by going through various problems, but you'll need it to become a stronger person.

THREE: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make.

FOUR: The most important part of you will always be what's on the inside.

AND FIVE: On every surface you walk through, you must leave your mark. No matter what the situation, you must continue to do your duties. By understanding and remembering, let us proceed with our life on this earth having a meaningful purpose in our heart.

We are just like the pencil, who can make a difference in our lives and in the lives of the people around us. Don't ever underestimate what you have the power to do!

(Andrea's picture and post)

For a moment i was like, wow. Speechless.

I think God has let me pass by this 2 blogs not by accident. It kinda reflect my feelings and also answered my feelings.

Sometimes when you feel as if nothing in life seem to hold a meaning for you anymore. Just remember, there is always someone out there looking out for you, watching over you.

Sometimes, all it takes is just a phrase to make someone feel stronger. I don't mean physically, but emotionally and mentally. A simple phrase like,"you've done a great job!", could really give you the strength to move forward.
During leaders' retreat, Yurong asked us to give testimonial about the first 6 months of cell leading and so on. I'd only thank God for Guan You, and i've forgotten to thank God for my cell, both the old cell and the new cell. Being a new leader and all, it really stresses me at times of what should i do to get my cell ppl to like me, to get them to talk to me and so on. Okay so publicly, i would like to thank God for my current cell. I think that they had really let me open up my horizon towards certain stuff. The notes that they had written to me on the paper really encourages me alot. All this time when i had felt i have not done anything for them, their note had actually made me realised tht i had done at least a tiny weeny bit tht had helped them or impacted their life. I thank God for placing them in my life, although sometimes i can get rather irritated at them, ultimately, i've learnt alot through them. There's alot of things to thank God for about them.
I thank God for Clarissa, Biru and Guan You(again). There were and are my cell leaders. Guan You and Biru were my 1st cell leaders, Biru and Clarissa were my 2nd cell leaders. And now, i'm leading a cell with GY. You see how amaing God is! All three of them had showed me the ways of being a leader, espcially Clarissa. She's been a really great person to get an answer from...

Hmm, i dono wat to type le, okay, To make my blog seem more attractive, eh, here's a picture for you!

I forgot when i took this... haha... But yar....

Okay, its 5.34 p.m. Bonsiour everyone!

What's a blog without pictures? So, here's a feed for you!

So cute rite?

My Cousin sent it to me this morning. An boy was i in love with the picture at first sight! Haha. Today, was like any other day except that today was God's day.

There are sometimes when you feel like you could do nothing right, and that nothing seems to fall in place. You have not master anything well yet just hanging around, neither good nor bad. Sometimes, actually most of the times i feel like that. I guess its human nature. There are times when you wish you could be good at at least one thing, master the thing well and let everyone be proud of you.

There are times when all it just take is a word to change your life, for the better or for the worse. Its just one little word to brighten up your day, or to darken your week. Its just a comment that can just hit you unexpected. And all it takes is for that little word to come out from someone's mouth, to change your life, and to change you. Many a times we feel like life is neither here nor there, or we haven't found a purpose in life and it just tears the hair out of us! The feeling of, why can't i be like him, why can't i be like her, why can't i be like everyone else. But we never thought of: why can't i be myself.

I think the good thing of being a christian is that you would know that God loves you no matter what you are and who you are. He doesn't care if you're fat or skinny, pretty or ugly, white, black or yellow. OR any- so-what things, He LOVES you all the same. It's really assuring to know this.

OKay, i guess i'm not making any sense in this post. Oh wells.... Okay, before you all get bored from reading this post, i shall add colours to your eyes.... TA DA!!!! I'm giving colours to your eyes! OKay, i actually hate post with so many different colours but cos i dono how.... Oooo, its back to normal.... Okay, here's really wat i meant by adding colours to your eyes!

TA DA!!!!

Now, tht's really colours! Okay, i shalll stop being so lame. Its 12.35 a.m. now, and moi has to get moi beauty sleep.... Haha.... Tatas

Hmmm

Okay, i give up trying to write a story through blog... I'll write only when it comes to me, so meanwhile, welcome back to the old blog, where i'll talk all bout me myself and i and my (boring) life.... Hahas. Here's a little update bout my past 2 months of life... PROJECTS! AHHHHH!!!!! Okay, its both good and bad. The good thing is that it keeps my brain working, bad thing is, its squeezing my brain dry!:( And everyday its just school project facebook then sleep. Haha, Oh well, lets move on to today then....

Met up with Yan Ling, Daphne, Serene today to celebrate Yan's birthday! Oh man i miss the times when we had with each other! Those memories were fond and haiz.... Sometimes i just wanna turn back time or at least stop time from going. But then hey, if there wasn't then, there won't be now eh? Oh wells. We went to watch Night at the Museum 2. Its my 2nd time watching but its worth watching again la i feel. I love being with me girls! After the movie, we headed to amk hub and we saw Perry at the Somerset MRT station.... Haha... AHhh, those times....

Gosh, i'm sounding really old. I guess it takes time before i actually get use to my poly environment. I seriously agree to what James say bout how everyone "acts" when talking to anoter person. It seriously a pain to the ear. I quoted this from someone, erm, she was talking loudly and i overheard it. She said that " In Poly, there are no true friends, you're true friends are in secondary". And after i heard that i was like, Wow, Tht's kinda true. Its already week6 of poly and yet, there isn't someone whom i can really talk to about my feelings or puton my true self. Right now, i have to be someone else. Someone superficial and i'm feeling rather uncomfortable bout it. It jus tht everyone wants to fit in, and in the end, nobody know what their trueself is anymore. I guess it just takes time. Let nature takes its course and somehow, everything will fall into place. I guess i'll just have to leave everything to God.

Funny thing, today, i woke up with the song, Center of it All stuck in my head. It was kinda like an answer to my prayer. And just, now, i realised tat the song had another answer to the feeling i have. You know whenever i'm about to meet up with my old friends or even think bout the times in sec sch, i have an urge to cry. I donno why, but it just comes.... Haiz... I'll just let time run and let everyting fall into place lor.

OKay, its 11.17 p.m. now. I promise i'll try to comtinue blogging whenever i have the time! Erm, GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE!!! Au Revior!

Part 2...

Doris kept her distance away from everyone and refused to utter a single word. Her friends tried all ways to make her smile and to laugh. They brought her to their usual hang out, treat her to her favourite food, gave her presents and told her jokes. But none of these seems to be working. Doris isolated herself from everyone and everything that was around her. There was this emptiness in her heart and no there were no words she could use to describe the emptiness she felt.

Carrying her backpack over her shoulder and holding her books in one hand, Doris scurried off to the exit of the school. She squeezed through the growing crowd. Just a few steps before the exit, the books and the bag flew out from Doris's hands. Doris fell on her back. Realising that her stuff were scattered around her, she immediately began picking them up. Just as she reached for the last book, someone picked up the book.

I have no more brain juice left for the day/month. My post will also decrease... So, don't be surprised if i never blog for a month or more... haha Yups... Part 2 was supposed to be up many weeks ago, just tht i havent completed typing. Oh wells. Its 3 mins to 1 a.m. BONJOUR!

Ok, i decided that i shall try something new to my blog. So rather than just posting bout me myself and i, i want to try something different. Okay, to cut the crap, I, Jolene, will attempt to write stories on my blog. Like in series. Only, i will stop when my brain juice is all dried up and i can no longer continue for tht story. Erm, well anyways its just a try out.

Do not expect bombastic words in my stories cos, i'm not exactly the type of person who has many vocabularies in my vocab bank. Okay, here goes nothing. One more thing, THERE WILL CONFIRM BE GRAMMATICAL ERRORS!

Sweet, young, bubbly Doris had everything a girl could have ever wanted. The loveliest parents, the warmest bunch of friends, the sweetest home and whatever a girl of such a tender age could ever dream of. She was the only child and everyone loved her. But all good things never last long. At the age of 12, Doris had to go through a terrible pain that no other girls of her age would have gone through. Fate was cruel. It took away her father and left her mother in a deep coma. This was all because of a reckless and irresponsible driver. Poor Doris was at school when all of these happened. It was too sudden and too shocking. The principal had called her into the office and broke the heart-breaking news to her. It was all too much for Doris to bear. So much so that she didn't know how to react. She could only stare blankly at the deep blue eyes of her principal. Inside this poor dear, the tiny little heart shattered into pieces. The light on Doris face dimmed and her smile was erased. The laughters disappeared and words were hushed. Doris was never the same again.

Okay, i shall end here cos its late le and i need to sleep... YUps! NIte ppl, er, Morning actually...

I'm exhausted! So, i'm not gonna post bout my day! Erm, its already labours day.... Okay, but still, its never too late.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERYLENE!!!!

OKay, tht's all... Good NIght! its 12.43 a.m. btw...

I AM SO HAPPY AND SO HIGH!!! AND I SURVIVED 6 HS OF LECTURS TODAY!!! So proud of myself... I sit between Shery and Josh. Eh, lectures was hmmm, boring? only some part were interesting. Okay mainly the teachers. Had the interview today! there were so many people waiting for their turn to be interviewd. Me and Shery went up to the 5 th lvl for the interview. Shery's interview was at 6.15 while mine was at 6.45. She was supposed to wait for me before leaving to join the crusaders. But it turns out that, I went in earlier than my interview time and Shery on the other hand was the last to come out! I think they asked her alot of questions. Haha... Eh, made new friends during te interview, Eh, Jeremy , Camillia( i think its spelt like tht), Denise and Bernice, er i meant jian tong. Haha... SOmething hiarious happened during the period of time, but i'm to lazy to describe... Haha :)

I want Monday to come soon....

Ok, its 11.38 p.m.... Bonsiour everyone! NIGHTS!

Bonsiour! OKay, had my second lesson for French today and i guess it was worth spending 6 hrs in sch, rotting in the library. I watched 12 dogs of christmas today. I think our sch library is so cool! It had an area, they call the living room, where we go to watch our movies. FInished the show ard 3 and was spending the next few hours rotting.

Oka, i'm trying to do something constructive rather than using fb everyday, everytime! So here am i, reading my textbook. But then, poor distracted me, is posting my blog! Haha... But fret not, i'll read. Forced myself to read rather.

Tomorrow's my interview for Ngee Ann Poly Ambassador. I'm pretty excited and praying and wanting to get in badly. Pray for me you guys. OKay, its 11.38 p.m. now. I must get back to my readin. GOODNIGHT!

I love Worship at Gracehaven! OKies, so today wasn't that bad. As in the day, and not the events. Oh wells. Went to 'sao mu' today. It really is interesting looking at the different. Oky, maaybe not interesting, but, erm, okay, i donnno a better work. Hmm... Haven't been really doing quiet time this few days. Actually, Haven't been doing a lt of things. HAIZ...

Its 10.48 p.m. now. GOOD NIGHT

What's wrong with me?

I'm in my sch's library for the first time! Haha... Lesson ended at 3 today. There's just too much to describe bout life in poly. It's amazing! But at the same time, there seems to be the tremendous stresses awaiting somewhere. Haiz... PRoject works! So many. Love the peeps in my class :D. And yup, THE TREND OF FMS PPL----- FACEBOOKING!!!! Everyone was facebooking during graph comm today la! Erm, including me, but i was also listening.

Okay, i don't have much to type bout le. Erm, its 3.51 p.m. now... GOOD AFTERNOON!

HELLO!!! My teacher's laptop is useless!

Its 9.10 a.m. now!

Its raining, not pouring.
My brothers are snoring.
I went to bed, didn't bump my head.
And i must get up in the morning!

Okay, tht was a little something for everyone.. Haha, As a matter of fact, my brothers are not snoring, yet. I'm really glad i joined in the dance for fund cos i really made an awesome bunch of friends! And my seniors are really crappy but funny at the same time. Ya har, and today or rather yesterday, i left my lap top at home cos they said tht laptop wasn't needed for lectures, who says? Okay, anyways after dance rehearsals, we went to KAP to eat. THen Wan FOng offered me a rideto Serangoon Central. So kind of her! Yups, i don't have much to type and pretty excited bout tmr.


The wild side of me is coming out slowly each day as a i get comfortable with the ppl ard me. AHhh... How nice! OKays, its 12.28 a.m.... Good MOrning EVryone!


Bonjour, Au Revior!

Moi je m'appaelle jolene. Comment tu t'appaelle? Haha... Frm the sound of it you can tell tht i just came out from french class! Je ne comprends pas? Oh wells, too bad...OKay. today is day 2. Had web smth lessons today... It was very very cold in the classroom... Brr... Mr WIlliam, the tutor, let us out 1 and a half hour earlier cos our photoshop wasn't working. Photoshop is a very cool tool but not my cup of type of tea. Haha.. After class, we went to the convention centre, the to the it helpdesk to activate our photobooth. The bunch of us in order, Me, Sheylene, Mandy, Kevin, Amelia, Shana, Amanda and Joshua sat outside in a row to use our mac... We look like some retards! Anyways, managed to activate the photobooth, then the five of us, Amanda, Amelia, SHana, Kevin and me went down to United Square to get a free cone from BEn and Jerry's. THe ice cream is AWESOMEEEE!!! THen Amanda left and Amelia went to queue again with her friend Valerie. After everyting, SHana left and the remaining of us went to Cine to catch a movie. BUt to much disappointment. Walao, Kevin treat Amelia and her other fren to the movie la! Me and VALerie so jealous. OKay.... NOw is the coolest part of the day....

It all started when i asked Shana wat her sec sch was. WHen she told me Swiss Cottage, I immediately thought of Jing Kuang, my super old pri sch fren. She asked me how i knew him and i told her i was also from yew tee pri. Tht was then, she realised why i look so familiar to her and vice versa. SHE WAS FROM YEW TEE PRI SCH TOO! SO cool rite?! I was then amazed la... Like after so so so mny years, i cld find someone from my second pri sch. Both of us were prefect and was supposed to be in the same class if i hadn't left. Ah, GOD sure is AMAZING! Haha.... Yups. Okay, i guess tht's all for oday. Its 10.48 p.m. now. I needd to go bathe. GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE! Au Revior...

Today was my first day of school... Haha... And ya its only for 4 hours. Eh, i my CATS tutor is pretty funny and very engaging... Looking forward to his class. Wonder wat tmr'll be like?

My emotions are usually written on my face... This, i got to change.

SCHOOL IS STARTING TMR!

OK, tht's all.. the shortest post ever. Its 10.23 .m. GOod night!

lazy me

HEllos! Didn't blog last few dayscos i was lazy to blog... Haha and oso busy watching ghost whisperer s4... I love tht show.... Okay, anyways, today went to eat Swensens at Changi Airport t2 with my og... Don't ask why... Long story...Was late for band today, but luckily today was the cleaning up of our instruments. Haha, after that, had ice cream frm SWENSENS!.... O, the thing was i didn't eat ice cream there cos i rushed off first. Yar. tht'e basically my day.

Tomoorow got induction day and i'm kinda dreading it cos there'll be lots and lots of speeches... Sian... Oh well, gonna go bathe after finishing my watermelon. Its 11.47 p.m. now... GOOD NIGHT :)

Watched Knowing today with my mom... Critics: It's a good movie, better than The Day the Earth Stood Still. But i think, War of the World is still better of the 3. Basically the storyline of Knowing, is the same as the other 2 movies i mentioned. But i think the storyline for this is better. I think its quite cool how the scriptwriter can get the 2 pages of number out and the events and location. He must have done a whole lot of researched. The movie was also quite creepy at parts because of the sound effects and there were sudden moves which shocked us. The ending was kinda touching. John, the guy, needed to make the big decision to let go of his son to save him. Which meant tht they were be separated. The part where John, his sister and parents hugged together and got burnt alive by the sun was also touching.
Yups... Went to bras besar to collect my pay then went on to bugis st to buy my shoes. Sian, cos i cldn'nt find the shop which i anted to get the shoe frm. But managed to buy another pair. Went parkway bought the black jeans and a outer wear. Yups.... Tht's basically my pay...
Its 8... GOOD NIGHT!

woahhhh

ARGH.... FOrget it, watevver i typed just now had been accidentally deleted... So i'm gonna make things brief.... HAPPY EASTER DAY TO ALL!!!! OKay, had sunrise service at 6.30 a.m. this morning. I onli had a totl of 4.5 hrs of sleep cos Matt had to pick me up at 5.30... Do the calculations yourself... I'm trying to finish this post by 12 mn... Sry.... Haha... The 10 am service's sermon was good today. Commissioner Lim is one of the few pastors who can actually engaged ppl in his sermon. Yups... Had gracehaven worship prac later at 2 like dat. Did i mention i was extremely tired? I slept well singing, erm, if you noe wat i mean... anyways, jammed at the audi till close to 7 like dat... I played the keyboard! Haha. The guitar a little while only. And sang most of the time... It was really good... okay, its a min to midnight.... I'm gonna end here.... Good night everyone :)