AWESOME!!!! ITS THE HOLS!!!! HAhaha...

Okay, here are my goals of the holidays

1. go library borrow books
2. Go exercise, most prb swimming in the morning
3. watch as many movies as i can
4. go out and not stay at home

Erm, this is what i can think of for now:) Ahahahs... Shall not worry bout my results :)

TIRING & awesome! Can't wait for it to be over and done with... 7 weeks break, HERE I COME!

Today, together with Amelia and Shana, we were TEARING our hair out! Because of the web gra presentation which is in about 9 hours time!!!

I'm out of my house. As i said, i self quarantined myself for a day. But, hmm, i shall just trust God in everything. I think in poly, the battle within you and God with the devil is really STRONG... Just with the group members you have, you really really really need to train your anger management, watch your emotions and the words that comes out from your mouth. I really can't wait for this sem to be over.

Seroiusly, i'm supposed to be doing something like now, but i don't know what i'm to do. Haiz. sian... Ok ok, i shall stop here and maybe get some sleep. I shall just leave all my worried and anxieties to God. Its 12.58 a.m. Nights...

Here are 3 sentences to summarize my day.

1. Killer Heels
2. Pimple Outbreak
3. 3 Shades of colour

Today's shoot was good and bad. Good cos we got what we wanted to take and BAD cos we had to wait so long before we could take our shot, we were behind schedule, and we took damn long to find the perfect shot. Me, as the sound person, had aching arms. But it wasn't as bad as my heels. They are pain and bruised. But, i think compared to Josh and Amelia, i condition wasn't that bad. Amelia was literally DEAD by our last shot. She had not slept since last night. And Josh was like half dead. While filming, i was worrying what if i did carry the virus, and spread to all of them. But, i quit worrying when my heels started aching. In a way, it was kinda a good thing.

Okay, i shall stop here. Here's a pic of Josh during the shoot...

Cool Ah?!

OKAY, THAT'S ALL FOLKS. Its 12.44 a.m. now. TATA

~~LATEST BUZZ~~~

Bzzzz bzzz... okay, that was lame.. My brother is down with H1N1, although he has pass his critical period (thanks be to GOD), he's still H1N1 positive. So people who read my blog, keep me and my family in prayer yea?

Ahhhh, i can't afford to be sick! I have so many projects up in hand!!!! And i'm needed! Haiz, ok, i learn to let God be in control, but its kinda hard la. BUt, i will try! I don really have much to say. Yesterday, i was super down la. But, i thank God for Shana, for her two words "it's ok", for david, who hear my complains. And for Sam, this morning, who asked me bout how i was. I thank God for friends:) Haiz... I have self quarantined myself for a day. And tomorrow, hopefully by tomorrow, i can get out of the house!

Its, 12.09 p.m., Good Afternoon everyone!

Surprise, surprise! I'm blogging. HAH. I'm so gonna have a massive pimple outbreak. I will sleep early tonight. I will try to complete my reports tonight. I will try to complete at least half the storyboard tonight. I will attempt to sleep by 1 a.m. I will try to wake up early tomorrow. I will complete the storyboard tomorrow. I will stop talking like that.

Okay, seriously, i'm stopping the i will.... Haiz, i was feeling rather depressed after editing test. Thanks David for hearing me out. Its a rather stupid thought la. So, i shall not talked bout it. Haiz. Everything seems to go awry now. I have bad and negative feelings towards everything. haiz. haiz. haaiz. Ok ok

I shall put a picture to cheer me up :)

from devianART.com

Okay, its 10.07 p.m. NITES!

Hey hey, i decided to blog today cos 1. I'm in a good mood 2. I have nothing to do and 3. Some people are complaining that my blog is dead. Ok, i shall repeat this again, i'll try my best to do at least a MONTHLY update.

OKay, here's the riddle of the day, contributed by Shana. Here it goes:

Q: Jesus was playing hide and seek. He counted to 1000 and could find all the people in 1 sec. Why?

Haha. Put your answer down on the tagboard:) Hint: Don't think too much.

OKay, i was watching a french film just now.

A Tale of Springtime



Not a bad film. If you're wondering why i am watching a french film. Here are the reasons. 1. I'm taking french. 2. I need to improve on my french and 3. I have french oral assessment later! AHHHH!!! And in case you noticed. My reasons are in 3. as quoted from the movie. '3' holds a significance to it. OK, i'm paraphrasing, but ya. It was something like that and i had the same thoughts too. In the bible, alot of things comes in 3s. OK. enough bout that. Lately, i've been wanting to blog, but failed to have the motivation to do so. I did click the link for post but then, haha, as expected, i was too lazy to type or double-click it. Eh, don't understand what i'm saying? Too bad lor. Yesterday, i spent the evening watching youtube videos. It started of by a random clicking of links. Then i started watching advertisements (by accidental, i didn't even know wat i was watching la). Then i decided to watch the funny, banned and stupid commercials. HILARIOUS! Then with a random click, it lead to birth and then the pregnant dad. Haha. The advertisments were awesome. Some awesome ones were banned, which was kinda sad. Oh wells who cares.

okay, i think i'm gonna stop right here. Its close to 4 p.m. and i have to try to finsish up on my group's logo and try touching on the reports. TATA!

Hey all!!! I know i've been MIA for weeks, maybe months, hmm i can't remember. But oh wells, as i've promised (directed to SAM) I'll try to update my blog at least once a month :) Haha... During the 5 months holiday i have nothing much to do so blogging was a good way to kill time. But now that i've started school and all, I won't have much time to blog or can't be bothered to. Sorry guys. The 2 weeks holiday was SHORT! Haiz, can't wait for the 7 weeks hols to come. But that would also mean that major projects are coming !!!! SAD :(

Anyways, this few weeks have rather been annoying. Or rather, i'm being irritated by myself. Just today, i missed 2 158 buses. First cos i was playing hp games and the 2nd was cos i was reading 8 days. Last week, i over slept and had to take a cab back cause it was late. As a result of me oversleeping, i lost my pink water bottle. I think i've learnt my lesson. Concentrate in the bus and also while waiting for the bus! I missed the 2 p.m. bus today all because of my hot dog bun. The aunty totally forgot bout me la! It was only until i asked how long i have to wait then she start preparing my bun. And hence, bus gone. Spent $10.20 on taxi fare. Poof! Money flew right passed my face.

BUT, because i asked the uncle to drop me of at AMK central, i got to meet my ex- school friends. And i walked down the road of nostalgia. The weather was good during the walk. Erm, ya, i walked to my piano teacher's place from Central. It was only when nearing her place when it became sunny. Haiz. I miss my secondary school life. Yes i know it has already been 8 months, but then... Life was tough but fun.

Okay, i shall not blabber on anymore. Its 6.43 p.m. now. Hmm... Ok. TATA everyone

I decided to blog again... I went to read Hui Min's blog, there i'd learn wat i've been saying in the previous post. A praise could really lift one's spirit. Then i went to Andrea's blog, and there i saw this beautiful post.


The Pencil Maker took the pencil aside, just before putting him into the box. There are 5 things you need to know, he told the pencil, before I send you out into the world. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best pencil you can be.

ONE: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in Someone's hand.

TWO: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, but you'll need it to become a better pencil.

THREE: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make.

FOUR: The most important part of you will always be what's inside.

AND FIVE: On every surface you are used on, you must leave your mark. No matter what the condition, you must continue to write.

The pencil understood and promised to remember, and went into the box with purpose in its heart.

Now replacing the place of the pencil with you; always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best person you can be.

ONE: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in God's hand. And allow other human beings to access you for the many gifts you possess.

TWO: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, by going through various problems, but you'll need it to become a stronger person.

THREE: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make.

FOUR: The most important part of you will always be what's on the inside.

AND FIVE: On every surface you walk through, you must leave your mark. No matter what the situation, you must continue to do your duties. By understanding and remembering, let us proceed with our life on this earth having a meaningful purpose in our heart.

We are just like the pencil, who can make a difference in our lives and in the lives of the people around us. Don't ever underestimate what you have the power to do!

(Andrea's picture and post)

For a moment i was like, wow. Speechless.

I think God has let me pass by this 2 blogs not by accident. It kinda reflect my feelings and also answered my feelings.

Sometimes when you feel as if nothing in life seem to hold a meaning for you anymore. Just remember, there is always someone out there looking out for you, watching over you.

Sometimes, all it takes is just a phrase to make someone feel stronger. I don't mean physically, but emotionally and mentally. A simple phrase like,"you've done a great job!", could really give you the strength to move forward.
During leaders' retreat, Yurong asked us to give testimonial about the first 6 months of cell leading and so on. I'd only thank God for Guan You, and i've forgotten to thank God for my cell, both the old cell and the new cell. Being a new leader and all, it really stresses me at times of what should i do to get my cell ppl to like me, to get them to talk to me and so on. Okay so publicly, i would like to thank God for my current cell. I think that they had really let me open up my horizon towards certain stuff. The notes that they had written to me on the paper really encourages me alot. All this time when i had felt i have not done anything for them, their note had actually made me realised tht i had done at least a tiny weeny bit tht had helped them or impacted their life. I thank God for placing them in my life, although sometimes i can get rather irritated at them, ultimately, i've learnt alot through them. There's alot of things to thank God for about them.
I thank God for Clarissa, Biru and Guan You(again). There were and are my cell leaders. Guan You and Biru were my 1st cell leaders, Biru and Clarissa were my 2nd cell leaders. And now, i'm leading a cell with GY. You see how amaing God is! All three of them had showed me the ways of being a leader, espcially Clarissa. She's been a really great person to get an answer from...

Hmm, i dono wat to type le, okay, To make my blog seem more attractive, eh, here's a picture for you!

I forgot when i took this... haha... But yar....

Okay, its 5.34 p.m. Bonsiour everyone!

What's a blog without pictures? So, here's a feed for you!

So cute rite?

My Cousin sent it to me this morning. An boy was i in love with the picture at first sight! Haha. Today, was like any other day except that today was God's day.

There are sometimes when you feel like you could do nothing right, and that nothing seems to fall in place. You have not master anything well yet just hanging around, neither good nor bad. Sometimes, actually most of the times i feel like that. I guess its human nature. There are times when you wish you could be good at at least one thing, master the thing well and let everyone be proud of you.

There are times when all it just take is a word to change your life, for the better or for the worse. Its just one little word to brighten up your day, or to darken your week. Its just a comment that can just hit you unexpected. And all it takes is for that little word to come out from someone's mouth, to change your life, and to change you. Many a times we feel like life is neither here nor there, or we haven't found a purpose in life and it just tears the hair out of us! The feeling of, why can't i be like him, why can't i be like her, why can't i be like everyone else. But we never thought of: why can't i be myself.

I think the good thing of being a christian is that you would know that God loves you no matter what you are and who you are. He doesn't care if you're fat or skinny, pretty or ugly, white, black or yellow. OR any- so-what things, He LOVES you all the same. It's really assuring to know this.

OKay, i guess i'm not making any sense in this post. Oh wells.... Okay, before you all get bored from reading this post, i shall add colours to your eyes.... TA DA!!!! I'm giving colours to your eyes! OKay, i actually hate post with so many different colours but cos i dono how.... Oooo, its back to normal.... Okay, here's really wat i meant by adding colours to your eyes!

TA DA!!!!

Now, tht's really colours! Okay, i shalll stop being so lame. Its 12.35 a.m. now, and moi has to get moi beauty sleep.... Haha.... Tatas

Hmmm

Okay, i give up trying to write a story through blog... I'll write only when it comes to me, so meanwhile, welcome back to the old blog, where i'll talk all bout me myself and i and my (boring) life.... Hahas. Here's a little update bout my past 2 months of life... PROJECTS! AHHHHH!!!!! Okay, its both good and bad. The good thing is that it keeps my brain working, bad thing is, its squeezing my brain dry!:( And everyday its just school project facebook then sleep. Haha, Oh well, lets move on to today then....

Met up with Yan Ling, Daphne, Serene today to celebrate Yan's birthday! Oh man i miss the times when we had with each other! Those memories were fond and haiz.... Sometimes i just wanna turn back time or at least stop time from going. But then hey, if there wasn't then, there won't be now eh? Oh wells. We went to watch Night at the Museum 2. Its my 2nd time watching but its worth watching again la i feel. I love being with me girls! After the movie, we headed to amk hub and we saw Perry at the Somerset MRT station.... Haha... AHhh, those times....

Gosh, i'm sounding really old. I guess it takes time before i actually get use to my poly environment. I seriously agree to what James say bout how everyone "acts" when talking to anoter person. It seriously a pain to the ear. I quoted this from someone, erm, she was talking loudly and i overheard it. She said that " In Poly, there are no true friends, you're true friends are in secondary". And after i heard that i was like, Wow, Tht's kinda true. Its already week6 of poly and yet, there isn't someone whom i can really talk to about my feelings or puton my true self. Right now, i have to be someone else. Someone superficial and i'm feeling rather uncomfortable bout it. It jus tht everyone wants to fit in, and in the end, nobody know what their trueself is anymore. I guess it just takes time. Let nature takes its course and somehow, everything will fall into place. I guess i'll just have to leave everything to God.

Funny thing, today, i woke up with the song, Center of it All stuck in my head. It was kinda like an answer to my prayer. And just, now, i realised tat the song had another answer to the feeling i have. You know whenever i'm about to meet up with my old friends or even think bout the times in sec sch, i have an urge to cry. I donno why, but it just comes.... Haiz... I'll just let time run and let everyting fall into place lor.

OKay, its 11.17 p.m. now. I promise i'll try to comtinue blogging whenever i have the time! Erm, GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE!!! Au Revior!

Part 2...

Doris kept her distance away from everyone and refused to utter a single word. Her friends tried all ways to make her smile and to laugh. They brought her to their usual hang out, treat her to her favourite food, gave her presents and told her jokes. But none of these seems to be working. Doris isolated herself from everyone and everything that was around her. There was this emptiness in her heart and no there were no words she could use to describe the emptiness she felt.

Carrying her backpack over her shoulder and holding her books in one hand, Doris scurried off to the exit of the school. She squeezed through the growing crowd. Just a few steps before the exit, the books and the bag flew out from Doris's hands. Doris fell on her back. Realising that her stuff were scattered around her, she immediately began picking them up. Just as she reached for the last book, someone picked up the book.

I have no more brain juice left for the day/month. My post will also decrease... So, don't be surprised if i never blog for a month or more... haha Yups... Part 2 was supposed to be up many weeks ago, just tht i havent completed typing. Oh wells. Its 3 mins to 1 a.m. BONJOUR!

Ok, i decided that i shall try something new to my blog. So rather than just posting bout me myself and i, i want to try something different. Okay, to cut the crap, I, Jolene, will attempt to write stories on my blog. Like in series. Only, i will stop when my brain juice is all dried up and i can no longer continue for tht story. Erm, well anyways its just a try out.

Do not expect bombastic words in my stories cos, i'm not exactly the type of person who has many vocabularies in my vocab bank. Okay, here goes nothing. One more thing, THERE WILL CONFIRM BE GRAMMATICAL ERRORS!

Sweet, young, bubbly Doris had everything a girl could have ever wanted. The loveliest parents, the warmest bunch of friends, the sweetest home and whatever a girl of such a tender age could ever dream of. She was the only child and everyone loved her. But all good things never last long. At the age of 12, Doris had to go through a terrible pain that no other girls of her age would have gone through. Fate was cruel. It took away her father and left her mother in a deep coma. This was all because of a reckless and irresponsible driver. Poor Doris was at school when all of these happened. It was too sudden and too shocking. The principal had called her into the office and broke the heart-breaking news to her. It was all too much for Doris to bear. So much so that she didn't know how to react. She could only stare blankly at the deep blue eyes of her principal. Inside this poor dear, the tiny little heart shattered into pieces. The light on Doris face dimmed and her smile was erased. The laughters disappeared and words were hushed. Doris was never the same again.

Okay, i shall end here cos its late le and i need to sleep... YUps! NIte ppl, er, Morning actually...

I'm exhausted! So, i'm not gonna post bout my day! Erm, its already labours day.... Okay, but still, its never too late.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERYLENE!!!!

OKay, tht's all... Good NIght! its 12.43 a.m. btw...

I AM SO HAPPY AND SO HIGH!!! AND I SURVIVED 6 HS OF LECTURS TODAY!!! So proud of myself... I sit between Shery and Josh. Eh, lectures was hmmm, boring? only some part were interesting. Okay mainly the teachers. Had the interview today! there were so many people waiting for their turn to be interviewd. Me and Shery went up to the 5 th lvl for the interview. Shery's interview was at 6.15 while mine was at 6.45. She was supposed to wait for me before leaving to join the crusaders. But it turns out that, I went in earlier than my interview time and Shery on the other hand was the last to come out! I think they asked her alot of questions. Haha... Eh, made new friends during te interview, Eh, Jeremy , Camillia( i think its spelt like tht), Denise and Bernice, er i meant jian tong. Haha... SOmething hiarious happened during the period of time, but i'm to lazy to describe... Haha :)

I want Monday to come soon....

Ok, its 11.38 p.m.... Bonsiour everyone! NIGHTS!

Bonsiour! OKay, had my second lesson for French today and i guess it was worth spending 6 hrs in sch, rotting in the library. I watched 12 dogs of christmas today. I think our sch library is so cool! It had an area, they call the living room, where we go to watch our movies. FInished the show ard 3 and was spending the next few hours rotting.

Oka, i'm trying to do something constructive rather than using fb everyday, everytime! So here am i, reading my textbook. But then, poor distracted me, is posting my blog! Haha... But fret not, i'll read. Forced myself to read rather.

Tomorrow's my interview for Ngee Ann Poly Ambassador. I'm pretty excited and praying and wanting to get in badly. Pray for me you guys. OKay, its 11.38 p.m. now. I must get back to my readin. GOODNIGHT!

I love Worship at Gracehaven! OKies, so today wasn't that bad. As in the day, and not the events. Oh wells. Went to 'sao mu' today. It really is interesting looking at the different. Oky, maaybe not interesting, but, erm, okay, i donnno a better work. Hmm... Haven't been really doing quiet time this few days. Actually, Haven't been doing a lt of things. HAIZ...

Its 10.48 p.m. now. GOOD NIGHT

What's wrong with me?

I'm in my sch's library for the first time! Haha... Lesson ended at 3 today. There's just too much to describe bout life in poly. It's amazing! But at the same time, there seems to be the tremendous stresses awaiting somewhere. Haiz... PRoject works! So many. Love the peeps in my class :D. And yup, THE TREND OF FMS PPL----- FACEBOOKING!!!! Everyone was facebooking during graph comm today la! Erm, including me, but i was also listening.

Okay, i don't have much to type bout le. Erm, its 3.51 p.m. now... GOOD AFTERNOON!