It's my birthday :)

It's my birthday!!! I'm old :(

Materialistic

Materialistic:

–noun

1. A person who is markedly more concerned with material things than with spiritual, intellectual, or cultural values.

2. An adherent of philosophical materialism.

–adjective

3. Concerned with material things; materialistic.

4. Of or pertaining to philosophical materialism or its adherents.

Ok. Like what I've highlighted, I guess that best describes me now. Because of a malfunction wardrobe/closet/cupboard, I just want to get new clothes, new shoes, new bag and new underwear. It's bugging me and it's not good :(

I sense the pressure rising... SO MANY THINGS DUE NEXT WEEK!!! And i have yet gotten a single book to review on yet :( Sigh...

Birthday, birthdays...

Today is Jerrold's, Ellen's and Celine's <3 Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THE 3 OF YOU!!!

And in a week's time it'll be my birthday :)

Some time ago, I was thinking out loud to the people in school that I never really had a surprise birthday at all. Shery went, "Where got? We did one for you last year..." Then I remembered the sheep that she and Sam went looking around for me as a gift. Then I went , "Oh ya..."But, that's all I remembered - the sheep.

But when I got back home to think about what Shery said, I did indeed had a surprise birthday celebration. Although it was a short one, but it was a sweet and touching one. I remembered I was almost in tears.

I was at Jesca's place helping her with her LocVid AP. Late that night, they surprised me with a birthday cake. 'Cos my birthday was a few days ago, I had least expected the cake and what more, a celebration. So, it was the first surprise birthday celebration I ever had. A short and sweet one :) For the past few years, I always had to look for people to celebrate my birthday with me, but that one day, as cliche as it sounds, I felt special - like a little girl :D

Yesterday was David's birthday. We went to his house to surprise him. Kuang came up with this brilliant idea - He told David that Jin Le and him were going to his house to swim, and the plan was for the rest of us to turn up and surprise him.

The plan kinda changed. Kuang, JL, Rebe, MC and me, we met up at ard 9.45 a.m. to buy David's cake. The initial plan was to called David down to the swimming pool, but it was raining. Kuang called Deena, David's sis, if we could go up instead to surprise him, and we did.

Both Deena and her mom were super cooperative. They let us into the house and entertained David while we set up the cake and light the candle. Judging from the number of times David scratched his head, I dare say he was very surprised with us appearing.

Ooo, we got him this cake.

Winnie the pooh

Us :)

We spent the rest of the day playing Cluedo - a very fun game.

Well, December is always the best time of the year, and the poorest time of everyone's year.... But, as the bible says : To give is better than to receive.

I can't agree more on that...

The Imam and the Pastor

Oh yes! I went to help out at a Community Leader's Conference today, and boy was it insightful.

I never knew that the Bible and the Qu'ran were so similar in many ways. Well, I did learn a lot of things today, and I've seen real examples of what a full grasp of bible knowledge can do.

Shall work hard...

Sing to East and the West

Went to Yurong's place to celebrate her 21 + 1 Birthday today.

There was a huge crowd.

Her place was very much prenankan, just like lao gou's shop. I was quite mesmerized with the antique at her place, especially the very much antique porcelain jar. I had actually wanted to open and peek in.

The highlight of today was, that there was finally an EAST PERSON in the whole crowd! YEAH :D

I got a lift home by Mark, Cheryl's "friend". He stays in the East and that's rare. The people from church are either from the North or the West.

I think God does surprise me sometimes. Here I am, wondering how on earth to get home. He always manages to make someone appear to agree to send me home.

Anyways, I thought that the trip back would be quite awkward, but I guess it was alright. Cheryl, if you happen to read this - I totally approve of him ;) Haha... And no worries, I didn't tell him anything about you except for the fact that you and your cousins threatened to harm us when we were young.

OH yes, it's past 12 midnight....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOW GUAN YOU!!! You're OLD now :D

Red Lorry Yellow Lorry

Try saying that at a faster pace. Faster now. Okay, that was just me being random.

This is the 2nd time i dreamed of being knocked down by a car. David say its Exhaustion. Maybe i just want to experience being knocked down by a car? Haha.

I'm really tired. Too tired to do anything in fact. I just want my bed and my sleep....

Procrastination

I should stop finding excuses and do what I'm suppose to :( But the fact is, it really is hard to do work in a noisy environment and all I wanna do now is to sleep...

Director's List

Something really surprised me. When she read out my name on the director's list, I was like, WOAH~ I was really really surprised and happy at the same time. But despite that, I've started to worry. What if I don't get on the list next semester? Will I be able to continue to improve?
Can i do better?

I think i really need to step up in faith and like how i always encourage the rest - to do my best and let God do the rest.

My song of the week :)

Groups and AAAAAHHHhhhh.....

The first week of school is when the terror begins. Not the modules and not the timings, but more of the groupings and the people.

So this week, I made an enemy and I hurt somebody. I feel guilt towards the person I hurt. To my new found enemy, I really don't feel anything towards you. But sometimes i just feel like - What?!, when i see you.

I never knew that forming groups could ever be so full of drama and politics. This is the first time I've ever felt this way. In a dilemma between what's beneficial towards myself or towards a relationship. I know the answer already, but when facing the problem, everything just comes back to - ME. As a result, feelings are hurt, enemies are drawn.

I would like to think of it as a learning experience. And it also got me reminded of how critical the world can be. Talking to the rest today had me reminded myself of how God really has a purpose for everything that we faced.

Today was NPDOP. I really gave a lot of thought on what happened the past 4 days - My attitudes and behaviours. Some of the things I've done weren't the best solution and not very Godly. But I'm reminded again that i shouldn't take things into my own hands but place everything into God's. There's so little I can do, but so much He can do.

I'd swung my phone onto the road right in front of the bus on my way home. I immediately picked everything up, after I've picked everything up, tapped my card and sat down, I realised that my phone battery was missing. I panicked and thought it was impossible to find it 'cos the bus could have run over my battery, but i knew i had picked everything up already so how could it have gone missing? I checked my seating area, but no, it was no where in sight. Finally i just gave up and told God that if it appears, it will.

Something told me to alight from the front 'cos my batt might have flung out of my hands when i tapped my card. Lo and behold, it really was there when i was about to alight.

Moral of the story: God shows miracles even with the slightest things.

This week, my aim: To not be confounded by the worldly things, and to constantly remind mself of the Fruits of the Spirit.

雨过天晴

Thanks for clarifying things with me :)

I thought today's sermon was quite interesting and impactful. There were many things that could be learn from the story of Jesus feeding the 5,000 with 5 loaves and 2 fishes. The most important thing i picked out was to have faith of a child - Simple Faith.

I guess that's what I'm really lacking of right now. Shall pray bout it.

It so happens when I feel down, everything I see or hear follows my mood. The songs playing, although i can't catch the words, just the tune can't further sadden me.

I don't know why its affecting me so much. I should just ask, and then clear my doubts.

Is it me?

Are you directing this at me? If so, I'll steer clear of you then

The Duck Song

Duck Song

Duck Song 2

Duck Song 3

Found this video during the last day of camp! Very entertaining... Haha :D

Have faith, I must

I have comments on my post :D Haha.

Long walks trigger thoughts. Or at least, that's what I believe. I had something in mind to post about for the week when I was in the car, but it disappeared when I tried recalling. Oh wells, I'll just post whatever that comes into mind.

Okay, i shall admit it. Nothing is popping in the head!

Oh, now here's something. This week, I learn that it is not as simple as it says to have faith. When i read the bible, thoughts like, did that really happen? Oh really? just pops into mind. That's when i know that doubts do arise every now and then, but what's most important is to have faith.

Somehow i feel that, every time I'm a little closer to God, i get pulled back a little too. It feels like a battle between the good and the evil. (This reminds me of Star Wars. Haha.)

My time table's out too, and I'm not at all happy about it :( But, i guess everything will be sorted out, in His time.

Hmm, shall get to work on the videos. O Inspiration, be upon me.

Just another Week

There wasn't much to do online, but I try to make myself do stuff online. Why? I do not know the reason either. So anyway, I realised that there are people who actually read my blog.

I finally watched the Paul B. dvd that GY lent me. It was about creating flow during worship leading. It was similar to what Yurong said to me during our pre-worship. I guess it really was helpful, 'cos I did learn quite a number of things.

I thought today's cell was quite encouraging. For once, everyone in cell seemed 'alive'. I think one of the most important thing required during a session is laughter. Without laughter, the session would just seem so - dead. But then again, too much laughing can cause annoyance and irritant. I think i always worry when there's no one laughing after too long a while.

Laughter does somehow cease the tension during lesson. Appropriate laughter that is.

I guess the same goes when I give testimony. Somehow, I feel much more at ease when i see people smiling at me or laughing to what i say.

Okay, this post shall not get any longer, and i shall end it with a picture :)

Picture :D

Guan You complained that my posts are wordy..... Hmph! I shall proof him wrong *sticks out tongue*





I have more pictures than you! Bleah~

All these photos are from TUMBLR :D haha.... Don't you just love the Disney? They are the classics! :)

In moment like this

This week, I'm not really in the best of moods. It just takes one simple comment, one simple night and one simple letter to change it all.

As much as i respect him, the trust that i had has now dropped. I no longer know what is true or untrue.

Today during worship Ali said something which kinda gave me a reminder that no matter how bad or horrible life is at the moment, we shouldn't stop praising God. The moment she said that, it shook me. I had actually forgotten about this. After years and years of scene playing, I had actually forgotten about praising God in moments like this.

I think I've been trying to run away, to avoid the problems. But I know, I have to face them and no matter how far i pushed it away, it'll come back eventually.

- Serve
- Pleasing

Somehow, God spoke to me in many ways for the past 2 days either through my quiet time or through Sundays. As much as i rely on God for his strength and grace, I know that I too have to do something because, He can do a million things for me, but if I do not respond, no matter how much help he has provided will be nothing.

In moment like this, I sing of a song.
I sing of a love song to Jesus.
In moment like this, I lift up my hands.
I lift up my hands to the Lord.

Singing I love you Lord,
Singing I love you Lord.
Singing I love you, Lord
I love You.

Just sometimes...

Sometimes its not very nice to blog about personal life matters. But, sometimes, you just have to get it out.

I think every year (that's if i did update regularly), one of my post would definitely be about family issues. And today, Ta-da. Family issues.

My mom always tell me never to marry a guy like my dad, which i both approve of and disapprove of, but I'm standing more to the approve side. I mean, come on, we learn as we grow even if it means we are old. So yes, today something happened which leads to this post.

Sometimes i wonder, how is it possible for someone to have possibly 2 sides to them to the fact that you trust and agree with them but to only find out in the end that, what they say might not be the absolute truth. And this, it hurts my head to think. To trust or not to? It happens so that the people i respect most turns out to be those of whom i can't really figure out.

I wrote him a letter. Because it seemed so much better than talking. But writing letters mean that there would be an awkward moment.

Sometimes, i really wonder, shouldn't you love a person for who he/she is and not what he/she is? Doesn't it take both hands to clap and while the other party is already giving in, shouldn't you not take advantage over that fact but also give in a little too? Isn't this what makes a happy marriage?

To give and take.

I love this Video :)

It wont stop

I've been doing the videos the past few days, and watching movies while doing them. But i think i'd spent more time on the movies than the videos, and that's probably why i sleep so late every night.

This whole week, i have to reach school at 9a.m. - French Class.

I want to sleep in and wake up late everyday.....