Silly Rants

Sometimes I feel like the only time you talk to me is when you need help. Actually, that's about it. Like really, you say I miss you and the only reason thereabout is because of school work. I actually don't really mind it, but it saddens me when I know that that would probably be the one and only time you bother talking to me, on a personal level.

Then when you ask about how I'm doing. I answer with a prepared heart that you most probably won't reply after.

I already know but it still saddens me. My jealousy? Work? Life? All excuses. If you aren't really interested in knowing about my life, at least pretend to be. Because, it's really easy to tell when you aren't.

Then we plan to meet up and all, and you always fly my aeroplane.... I can only reply you with a sure, and then knowing this will never happen.

If you really want to meet up with someone, you'll make the effort to, no matter how busy you are.



Silly rants. Probably carry it in my heart till i tell it to you, which might never be. But till then. Sigh.

Back to studying.

Commitment vs Surrender

Excerpts from an article I read - Why I'm Not a Committed Christian (And Why that's a Good Thing)

 “When you make a commitment, you are still in control, no matter how noble the thing you commit to. One can commit to pray, to study the Bible, to give his money, or to commit to automobile payments, or to lose weight. Whatever he chooses to do, he commits to. But surrender is different. If someone holds a gun and asks you to lift your hands in the air as a token of surrender, you don’t tell that person what you are committed to. You simply surrender and do as you are told. . . . Americans love commitment because they are still in control. But the key word is surrender. We are to be slaves to the Lord Jesus Christ.”

Yep, mind blown. He continues in John 16...

Here, Jesus feeds five thousand people. Then, seeking solitude with God, He leaves the crowd. They followed him, expecting more miracles and food. Jesus challenged their motives and told them He was the only spiritual food they needed. Their reaction is enlightening:

            From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him.

            “You do not want to leave too, do you?” Jesus asked the Twelve.

            Simon Peter answered him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We believe and know that you are the Holy One of Israel.” —Jn. 6:66-69

             Before my head whacking, I interpreted this episode as a crisis between the uncommitted crowd and the committed few. I now saw it as the difference between the merely committed crowd and the surrendered twelve. The multitude was committed . . . to a point. The Bible even calls them disciples. They had simply reached the end of their commitment. In contrast, the Twelve were fully surrendered. As Peter expressed, they allowed themselves no alternative other than following Jesus: “Lord, to whom shall we go?”

Learning something new yet again.

Jesus, help me to surrender. Amen.

The chapter ends.

Wondering and pondering cease changes to anything.

This marks the end of yet another chapter.

"Come to me all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rests for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11:28-30

Irresponsibility

So i figure the best way to reach out and express my feelings to reach out to the younger ones is through twitter...

Yes, im fuming mad. Honestly, he never learns...  at least call back to tell of whereabouts, and not leave those who are concern thinking whether you're dead or alive. 

To go or not to

While the care and concern starts pouring out, am I to just sit around and wait till words are said unto me?

Why does it take so much effort and heart to be in concern? Sigh...

Come come, relationship may fade away. Blood is thicker than water.

People may fail you, God's love never fail.

Feeling like im losing grip of things... i dont like this feeling.

Anchor

I have this hope,
As an anchor for my soul.
Through every storm,
I hold on to you.

There is hope in the promise of the cross,
You gave everything to save the world you love.
And this hope is an anchor for my soul,
Our God will stand

Unshakeable

Prayer

And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will rest upon you...

Walks

I love taking long walks.


But I guess, watching Captain America on TV wins long walk.

Dear heart,

Be still.

More of You.

Just one of those nights were emotions are on a whirl. I take my words back of not having mood swings!

Are you hungry for God? Are you thirsty for His word?

Something Minjie and Lynn said to me in the car on my way home made me teared a little.

God didn't say that the flowers will always be on the mountain top, but they can be found in the deep dark valley as well. Sometimes we have to be in the valley to truly appreciate and learn. I've been constantly reminded by the people around me.

When your mind and emotions are in a huge mess. Surrender them all to God. All to Jesus.

In the quiet, in the stillness
I know You are God.
Set a fire down to my soul,
That I can't contain, that I can't control
I want more of You, Lord.

What I've discovered bout myself

So, over the course of this year, I've learnt something big about myself - I'm quite a practical person.

I've no idea if it has the same meaning as being a realist or being pragmatic, but I guess it's about there? 

Slowly, I think I've transformed into someone who does things only if its practical. But I was never one who dare take risks, and I strongly believe that rules are created to be followed, unless it goes against my beliefs and principles. 

I guess it only comes to light and becomes much clearer after people ard you mention it. 

Here's to more self discovery journey. 

Cast me not away, from thy presence O God. 

Take not thy Holy Spirit from me.

Restore unto me, the joy of thy salvation.

And renew a right spirit within me. 

Give thanks to God for the truth - the things that has already happened and are right before your eyes. Give thanks for these things rather than what has not happened. Only then can you see and give thanks for the little blessings that God has placed in your lives. 

It's not whether we are getting bless through our worship but whether The Lord has been blessed with our worship.

Jesus be the center of it all

When your girlies are all in a different phase of life from you, suddenly it feels like there's no one to talk to.

It's all in God's time. 

"Revival starts from transformation, total transformation of the heart through the word."

"You can't have a ministry without praying for it. If you're not praying, don't do ministry."

My two takeaways from R1 that were a smack to my face. 

Set a fire to my soul,

That I can't continue, 

That I can't control.

I want more of you Lord. 

Jesus I believe in you, Jesus I belong to you. 

You're the reason that I live, the REASON  that I SING, 

With all I am

Happy 21st Alexia

Just came home from my cousin's (Mona's side) 21st party. Really nice and small party with a lovely cake from Paris Baguette. 

Oh, it's little Kayden's (my nephew) birthday as well. 

      

Feeling tired from all of today's event.. 

WHY ARE MY PICTURES SO BLUR D: D: D: D: